Blindness, not of sight but of the heart and the mind

becomes a part of me; who i am.

Traveling down a road with many twists and turns,

I loose my sense of direction.

It seems like the moon has blocked the sun and

 thus prevented light onto the earth and

a darkness.. like thick smoke curls up my body

and instantly i am shut

off from the rest of the world. lost in myself.

If i jumped from this rock

No longer standing above looking down

   no longer feeling the breath of the wind on my smooth skin

or the aqua sea trembling 

     no longer watching the sun's crystaline pinks and light yellows

dance across the sky and fade into the horizon

       I would leave behind a part of my sole to be buried in this sand,

to be lifted into the air by the calm waves of the sea.

    It's not just the way he opens the door for her or walks her to her door,

      It's that he truely cares about her and that is what makes all the difference.

face down on her bed

arms and legs spread,

looks like a gun is being held to her head.

dead.

      I thought that i was untouchable when i was a little girl.

     I though that if i put my arms out and spun around and around,

       that i could create my own force field and block out all the pain,

  the dissppointment and the fear.

         I was wrong.. somehow all the things i tried to keep away from

       just ended up catching up to me in the end.

Lost and insecure you found me

lying on the floor

surrounded, surrounded

why'd you have to wait?

where were you, where were you?

just a little late.

-The Fray-

If you only knew..

the girl she used to be is gone..

her happiness stipped down

all that's left is her heart; vulnerable and exposed.